我是相信你的

没错
我是真的相信你
我一直都对自己说
无论什么事
我都要相信你
即使你是真的欺骗了我
我也还是要选择相信你
因为我不想之前的事情再发生
所以我都会相信你对我说的做的都是真的

可是
最近我开始变得很犹豫
我不知道你说的做的是不是真的
因为只要你能够解释
我就会暂时不去想那么多
但是过后我却又会想
你说的是不是真的
我不希望你骗我
我希望你能够诚实的什么都对我坦白
至少这样我不会觉得你好假

其实我真的很生气你
什么事都好像是你说得理所当然
我不知道你所说的是不是真的
你总有一大堆解释得出的理由
而我又选择一次一次的相信你
有没有骗我
我想大概只有你自己知道吧
我不想去想那么多
可是我真的很希望以后你有什么就直接告诉我
不想出来见我直接告诉我
不想和我出直接告诉我
不要一直让我怀疑你好吗?

我不想破坏对你的信任

好复杂的心情

我也来个'心情'贴
其实我并不喜欢这样
虽然我们都认识
可是并不代表我们必须永远混在一起
我不能单独和你或和你一起吗
难道每次都要有你或你才可以一起吗
我比较喜欢和你混一起
是因为我们的话题比较接近
也有相同的故事可以分享
可是你却喜欢也一起把ta叫出来
去哪里都预ta一份
其实
我和ta并没有你想象得那么close
有很多事情你知道的比ta多叻
我比较喜欢和你单独一起耶
虽然我们都认识
可是以后可不可以有ta就没有ta
我比较喜欢单独和你还有你一起
不喜欢有你也有你
=(((((

好复杂
你你 ta ta
希望没把你们弄乱

你听见我说的吗?

睡觉前也要来个贴 =)

海鲜市场·我又来了

sighhhhhhhhhhhh
i have no idea why am i become so lala AGAIN
should i say again?
cause i think i became a lala since few years ago
this is what my family and friends comment about me last time
and now i am coming back to u-Lala =.= again

since i did tongue piercing
dyed my hair color to light gold color (actually is chinese tea color >.<)
i actually a 80% lala already
i myself dun even want to admit it but wtd?
it is the fact. =(

and there is one more proof to prove me getting more lala is
i went to perm my hair today. =(
what it called in english anyone knows?
in chinese call 玉米烫
i always think my hair is too thin and flat all the time
have to blow everytime before going out
if not my hair will totally look so flat
can u imagine a huge body with a small head?
so weird right?
and i am lazy to blow everyday though
so today i decided to perm it no matter in the raining weather
LOL

so please call me lion king now
with golden fur and big hair volume
x)

so damn lala right? =(

with tongue pierce some more. =(

i actually not so likey to edit my photo but too bad there is too blur+too small mega-pixels on my camera. if i am not edited it u probably cant see my face at all. =(

but i am happy because i dun have to blow my hair everytime before i going out.
yeppy~ =D

今年の生日

生日都还没到
我已经百感交集了

我有一种预感
今年的生日不会是开心的
不是因为没人陪我
不是因为你们plan得不太好
也不是因为那个突如其来的派对

而是
我自个儿的心情

其实说失落伤心
我不可能完全没有
我也不可能完全不放在心上
当然
我也不是只因为这个而伤心失落
而是
我的失望又再次破灭

我不是指你们
你们的确有尽心尽力
我感受得到 =)

而是让我再次失望的
是他的答案

他应该永远都不会知道
别人为我庆生
与他为我庆生的差别
到底有多不同

别人的生日
他毫不考虑的就答应
可我的
他却还要说
'再看'

其实答案早就应该知道了

对
你们说的都对
别抱太大希望
因为失望会更大

可我是典型金牛座
我固执在我坚持固执的地方上
我不会那么容易放弃
所以我永远都让自己伤得那么深

我说过
我的生日只要简简单单就好
太复杂
只会让我的心情也跟着一样复杂

我是很在意
那些说不确定要不要和我一起过生日却选择去那个派对的人
我是很在意
那些问了却没有答复或任何消息的人

我甚至觉得讨厌!

如果你们 不想 不要 不肯 不稀罕
都请清楚让我知道
不用让我的2个宝贝为了我奔波
我想我应该不需要请8人大桥来请你们来吧

而且
我不是花瓶 我也不是配角
我不需要在属于自己的场合里成为你的绿叶
如果你那么想独领风骚
就请你去那些应该属于你的地方

我不需要看你脸色迁就你

所以最后
我自己在心里已经做了2个最坏的决定
我知道如果我说我会开开心心的
你们应该也不会相信
毕竟发生了那么多事
我不可能当做没事

对不起
我没有做到真正承诺你们的事
我不是不想
而是我想太多了

在这刻
我真的只能说

我是真的真的真的 不 开 心

简简·单单

我不需要太复杂
只要能够简简单单的陪我吃个晚餐
喝个东西
又或者唱个歌
看个戏
我就已经很满足

只要不要太复杂
不要叫太多无谓的人
我想
简简单单就很快乐

还有
不要浪费太多钱去买礼物
礼物只是一个心意
不需要贵重的
能够是亲手做的就不错了 =)

如果他也能来就更好了

It's May!!

Finally it's May!
and is my birthday month. LOL
i have spent my holiday by going to Thailand with my mom and sis
it's my sis's company trip anyway
but there is some left seat so i and my mom followed too. haha
is a 4D2N trip or 3N?? because i was arrived home at around 1.30am in the next day. LOL
is quite tired though
because we keep walking and sleeping
and we are not enough rest =(

this is the first day i in the car. ignore my tired face. =(

i skip all those detailed parts okay.
it's first day in Thailand and after we checked in the hotel and take a shower, we went to this place, water market and our dinner place, a buffet at a 33rd floor hotel.

this is so called water market

there sell a lot of cute food over there. =)

and this is baked quail egg.

this ceramic cup can take home after drink. and i choose ultraman. LOL

can see what are these???

yes here is the zoom in.
i can't get to eat this. they said nice. =(

erm i have no idea what this inserts called.

i think it is bread-worm that normally we can see on the bread. =.=

don't believe i ate those?? here is the proof!!

and do trust me, there are not so bad like we thought. they just tasted like french fries. eat inserts can added protein to our body okay. i just dare to eat those small inserts but like this one, i am even not dare to touch it at all. yucksssssssss

it is super duper huge ok?! is it cockroach?? >.<

this is the scene took from our buffer dinner place.

after dinner, we went to Lee Garden for a walk.
and some of them went to massage but unfortunately my mom not follow them because she got her leg injured before the trip. =(
so we went back to our hotel and rest. =)

i forgot what we did on the second day. =.=
my mom and my uncle went to a temple which very far from our hotel to ask some wealth.
you know la, those uncles aunties very deeply love in this thing.
me and my cousin was doing nothing at all over there except than WAIT. =.=

few hours after they done, we head back to the pasar to do our last shopping.
and sorry guys, i am not buying any souvenirs because i have no much money on me. =(

i love our dinner on that day. ♥
is a bbq buffet.
it was like Bar-B-Q plaza we often eat.
but this is slightly different because it is buffet and we can take as much as we like!!
we have to hurry because that day was quite a lot of people and if we late, there will be nothing much food to left. =(

meatssss bar.

desserts bar.

is it look too much? but this is not belong to us. x)

and either this.

only this small plate belong to us because mostly we put in to our stomach already. LOL

see how happy are we. =)))

we saw an elephant at the entrance!

so we all like crazy go to feed it non stop LOL it sure be very full

in the third morning, we went to pasar again to get some smoked-pork but so sad, all sold out.
and i am so so so so so upset because i bought a pair of shoes but there is 2 different size! i can't able to change because i can't find the shop. =(

so this is my Thailand trip.
simple but happy.
after a great moment, i am going to help my dad out start tomorrow. =((
he asked me to assist my sis on those forever-ever can't finish job in his office.
so say goodbye to my holiday and hi to my office-days.
sighhhhhhhhhhhh

stay tuned. =)